Time & Perceptions by GingeredZ
If anything threw me off my axis - it was Thursday, 4pm - a four minute meeting that changed my focus, direction and goals. Before anyone comes at me with one door closes another opens or there is a reason for everything - i can't see it, I can't understand it and acceptance is hard.
Be normal - i ask myself how, when I built this around my being, my future - i have no clue!
It's time for the 7 year reset and this time I am spicier [not older] and should be confident in this new change..... I am not!
I have worked so hard to be ok and yes this doesn't change all of that, but how do I change, how do I flip the switch and move forward. I have no clue.
For now I am absorbing this change - not rushing into making decisions and taking the proverbial step back - not from my life but from this situation that doesn't suit my soul.
But I will say this - i have grown - i don't want to hide or have ostrich mentality instead I need a plan - no idea what that is or what it looks like ...
So bring it on life ... withdraw in a series of events ... I will be ok... clearly not today or tomorrow....but there's a will.
Bitter or Better !!!
This Ramadaan i ask all of u to take a moment to stop, find a defining moment - good or bad or ugly - and own it !
I breathe.
Disclaimer... I can't speak for the other 99 - just for me !🤎
Hugs Zohra. "Allaah is the Best of Planners." I know that you know what the best course of action will be for you. Insha Allaah. Make du'aa during this holy month.
ReplyDeleteI feel you. Not just in a sympathetic way, but because I am going through the same roller-coaster of feelings. It hit like a ton of bricks. Thank you for sharing your feelings in such a raw, honest way. We are here for each other
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ReplyDeleteAlways remember "Allah does not burden a soul with a burden it cannot carry" In Shaa Ameen, all will be okay, all will work out my Lampoen. You shall overcome Ameen Ya Rabbal Alameen. Love you through the universe and back!!!
ReplyDeleteIt was a gut punch…and it has rocked everyone to the core. Thank you for this beautiful and powerful description of your feelings at this difficult time. It resonates with so many. Now..one step at a time.. onwards and upwards.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you but I know that Allah is the best of planners my cyst . Always here for an earful .
ReplyDeleteYour honesty about how you feel ❤️
ReplyDeleteThat is so inspiring and comforting
We have one plan
ReplyDeleteAllah have another plan with will better Amin ♥️
The emotive and descriptive nature of your writing makes one feel like you having a conversation with a sister! Whatever it may be, may it be good for you by the will of Allah.
ReplyDeleteYou will be okay! Although you may not have a plan as yet, that too will come. Trust in Allah , the best of planners.
ReplyDeleteAs always , words from your soul. Raw and honest. Am I the only one who thinks that life throws one test after another at some ? Just when you are in a good space you get toppled over again ? Always happens to the good people.
ReplyDeleteNot sure about what has rocked your world but I think….. can it be worse than all that you have been through in your life? You will overcome this too my friend. Have faith in yourself! The Almighty will show you the way ♥️
What an excellent piece of writing as usual 👏...change is different and difficult yes, but to evolve into who we actually meant to be...change is necessary. Sending lots of love and hugs....S
ReplyDeleteAllah mentions that you may dislike something but there is perhaps good in it.Remember..nothing lasts forever.
ReplyDeleteThat four-minute moment may have felt like it shattered you but perhaps it's also creating space for something you haven't envisioned yet. I can see growth already happening through your words.
ReplyDeleteSpicier, not older? That’s a mindset shift that speaks volumes.
Thank you for sharing
May Allah grant you happiness and success always.....whatever happens is in Allah's hands.....you are stronger than you think,spicier than you believe and honestly.....greater than your mind may envisage.....keep going....
ReplyDeleteTawakkul... Life's unexpected turns can shake our foundation, but our faith reminds us that even when we don’t understand the wisdom behind a situation, Allah’s plan is always greater than our own.
ReplyDeleteZ.. Bitter or Better—remind me of the choice we always have: to let hardships break us or shape us. So yes, breathe. Absorb. Trust. You may not see it now, but one day, you will look back and realize this moment was a necessary part of your journey. May this Ramadan bring you clarity, peace, and unwavering faith. 🤎.. This is also reminder for me. I really appreciate and adore you my Baby.
Opening and closing........that's what doors are
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I don't believe that age old saying about 1 door
closing and another opening. Or maybe that
door takes a very long time to open.
We all have dreams and aspirations. Some achieved,
some not. We may build a life around our jobs ,
but then suddenly out of the blue, bad news.
Even our family and personal lives. Years spent building
Ait to a point and boom.
Your attitude is right.....bring it on and I will take you on.
Keep going forward. One door closed..........
Smash open another one
We are all on that same ocean with storms and rough water. Only the size of the boat and the captain's are different. All hoping to find a reasonable safe journey and a safe harbour to dock. So we're not ever alone even when it feels like it. You're reaching out with your truth and that's the ease with the discomfort. All the best in beating this "sucker punch".
ReplyDeleteSecond time trying....I hope my message goes through this time.
ReplyDeleteI pray that the right door will open for you....not only the right door but the perfect door. Please remember that you are not alone, sending tons of hugs your way and praying for peace. Love Thabz
I pray that the right door will open for you after this, not only right but
ReplyDeleteperfect. Know that you are not alone and keep on being your awesome self.
Sending tons of hugs your way
You couldn't have said it better! We pray for guidance as we navigate the uncertain times. Love and hugs Z🤍
ReplyDeleteChange is always as a surprise, we are comfortable where we are in life but we must stay cognizant of where we find ourselves for the very reason. Stay strong, you always got this, don't let any situation change Who you are. Strongs and like they say, God only send his best soldiers into the greatest battles (think I said it right) so keep smiling it's never the end. Xoxo.
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